you dont know what it feels like living alone in a house and hearing nothing but silence..til a point where noises are the things that freak you out.
you dont know what it feels like having to juggle your school work, housework and still have to please everyone even though you live alone.
you dont know what it feels like to hear your own echoes in your house because you're the only living thing in it.
you dont know how many nerves breakdowns i need at night so that i can out that smile back on my face the next morning.
you dont know what it feels like to wake up every morning seeing nothing but these four creepy white walls staring at you.
you dont know what it feels like to step outside everyday knowing your not where you want to be
you dont know what it feels like to have everyone crowding around you only to realize how lonely you actually are.
you dont know what it feels like to go through facebook everyday only to find yourself crying because you're lost
you dont know what it feels like having no where to run to for shelter
you dont know what it feels like to see everyone having fun without your presence
you dont know what it feels like to find out how insignificant and small you actually are to others
you dont know what it feels like to be lost and scared beyond compare
you dont know what it feels like to be here with your heart somewhere so far away
you dont know what it feels like to find that people you trust betray you
you dont know what it feels like have the freedom but no where to go
you dont know what it feels like to have dreams of people killing you but no one will save you
you dont know what it feels like to have your heart aching so bad you want to just rip it out of your chest.
you dont know what it feels like to flood your house with tears
you dont know what it feels like to have your heart shattered to a million pieces just after you've fixed it back
you dont know what it feels like to have to stick to people you dont trust because they trust you
you dont know what it feels like to watch someone you believed in lie to you
you dont know what it feels like wanting to hurt someone back so badly but you know you just cant do it
you dont know what it feels like to have on one understand your pain
i've always had this concept in mind when meeting new people - 心本善
but i always get my heart shattered again and again
i'm so disappointed
sometimes i think it would be better off
if i was seriously ill
at least i will get to feel everyone's sincere care
before i leave
right now i feel so lost and alone
it seems that there is no where i belong
and no were i can seek comfort from
多的是，你不知道的事
i wana blast my music in my ear so loud
that i go deaf
then all i would hear is silence
and i wouldn't have to listen to all the nasty things out there
but then
i realized
i would never get to hear your sweet voice again
