i cried.

they say bad things happen for a reason.

God must really be challeging me

but today, just for today

im going to stop being strong.

even though im forbidden to cry,

i cant really help myself.

you know

sometimes,

im afraid of being too happy

because when the happiness is gone,

the sadness starts to sink it.

and at that point,

you wish you could just hide in bed and cry your eyeballs out.

but sometimes, life doesn't allow you to do so

and that is when it hurts the most.

***

dear grandpa, 

although we've never met before

im pretty sure you're a really nice person

and you have a really lovely grandson 

whom im madly in love with.

i really hope you had a chance to see your other grandson graduation.

you must be proud of him.

with that, i hope that you rest in peace.

do watch over your loved ones.

and i'm sorry to say that we never had a chance to meet.

with much love, ♥