i ___ you

i've had a full 9 hours of sleep

but i feel as if i've been awake the whole night.

i didn't cry

but my eyes feel so sore as if they're cried the whole night long

my body is fine

but my mind feels as if it's going to break down anytime

im confused

but at the same time i feel i know where i am

i've only lived 20 years of my life

but it feels as if i've lived for a thousand years

i love you

but i hate you at the same time.