loving me.

this might sound silly to you,

but today i googled:

'how to love yourself.'

i actually, dont know how to love myself.

it's a fact that i will no longer deny.

so i thought that i'd google it and learn a little about self-love.

i read some interesting stuff on the internet that sounded pretty easy.

but i'm pretty sure that they're not.

especially for a stubborn head like me.

but one sentence really had me thinking.

"I have made the analogy that, if you keep giving to others without giving to yourself, it is like pouring water from a vessel. If you pour and pour without ever refilling it, eventually, it will run dry."

therefore, if i want to love my silly, my family and all the people around me,

i would have to love myself first

i've never actually thought of it that way.

i always thought that if i made people happy, i would be happy.

but now,

i shall learn to be happy, before i make others happy.

no more hiding crystal.

im going to be me.

it may take some time,

so please bear with me.

after all,

i'm still learning the art of living.

i didn't cry today.

i kept my promise :)