i'll smile with you, but you won't cry with me

so today, i became from being really anxious to super hyper.

the silly called me to let me know his results,

and oh boy is my boyfriend a genius :D

i was so happy for him i wanted to pop a bottle of champaign and shout

'raise your glass people!'

haha!

obviously, it didn't happen.

i really felt like giving him a huge and cuddly bear hug.

but sadly, im not there to celebrate with him :(

and he obviously chose to celebrate it with people who are actually (physically) there for/with him.

well, i guess i can't really blame him even if i wanted to right?

suddenly, i wonder how i can feel extremely hyper and happy at one moment;

and down and cold on the inside the next.

well, i guess i already know the answer to that.

but somehow, i wish it was the other way around.

maybe then,

i won't hurt so much.

with much love <3